CATHY LAMB QUOTE

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But Grief is a walk alone. Others can be there, and listen. But you will walk alone down your own path, at your own pace, with your own sheared-off pain, your raw wounds, your denial, anger, and bitter loss. You’ll come to your own peace, hopefully… but it will be on your own, in your own time.

Cathy Lamb

HER PERFECT DESIRE

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A mother’s Desire
Is to see her child grow
See him turn into a man
See her turn into a woman
When they grow and leave the nest
I will not have that with you

THE SCARS FROM MY HEART

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You may not see them
But they exist inside my heart
A heart shriveled up
By loss of a child I never got to love
So much love still floats in me
Looking for a place of rest
Solitude and calmness of heart
If my heart could speak of tales
It would be silent for a moment
Thinking where to begin
Which part that hurts less
Should it speak of

These scars
Hardened yet still soft from tears
A burst of hectic emotions
That make the scars
To refuse their healing nature
Still raw and innocent
The scars from my heart
Seek a place to begin healing
From the loss of a child I wished to love

THERE IS NO HEART BEAT

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Those words still haunt me
Words my mind yearns to forget
My heart needs to erase
My soul collapsed when those words were uttered
Life quickly ebbed out of me
My breath stuck in my throat
Such pain I have never known before
What happened
Why did it happen
When did it happen
Questions exploded in my mind
My heart beat was silent
Quiet moment of contemplation
Do I want to still beat again
When my other heart is none existent
How can so much love exist in a heart
Then be taken away
Take me home please

I WANT TO DISAPPEAR WITH THE DUST

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Wind seems so free
Blowing every direction it wills
Creating breezes out of its breath
No one can catch the wind
None can contain the wind
Master of its own destiny
Wind so fast, so slow
Everything it carries goes up
I want to disappear with the dust
Dust which the wind blows away
I want to float amidst the wind
See the earth below
Know I am free in the blue sky
I feel empty and light
So wind will carry me so effortlesssly
If I disappear with the dust
None will search for me below
I will be free to soar with eagles
Land in unknown places
Where my heart yearns to be

DANCE UNTIL IT COMES TOMORROW

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You feel stained by pain
Needing to be held without fear
Wanting the loss to go away
Dance until it comes tomorrow
Your Joy
It feels so tight in your chest
You want to scream out in hurt
Feeding on the negative mood
Dance until it comes tomorrow
Your Peace
Memories hurt thinking of them
Times not moving fast enough
Seething with feelings of disarray
Dance until it comes tomorrow
Your Faith