GIVE ME A SONG CHILD

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My heart has not sung
Since you said goodbye to me
Silently without waking up
You told me you needed to go
Your time on earth had ended
Before it even began
Lost amidst a rhythmless world
Music has stopped synching
With my soul that is silent
Even birds no longer chirp
Crickets do not sing at night
It is a horrible silence my child
My unborn
Everything is deathly calm
Even my mind is too lost inside its own
Night no longer seems silhouette
My ears have not listened to music
As my heart refuses to let beats in
Through my soul that is deadened
I am afraid to listen to music
Because only painful reminders
Abound surrounding my lonely self
What song can I sing
When my body howls like the wolves
Out of rythm because of loss
Your loss child
Has left me without music
Give me a song child
To take away this grieving insanity

A NEW SADNESS

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A new sadness that lives in me
Feels like it will not go away
This sadness i’ve never known
A sadness so deep inside
An unknown sadness
That sadness that evolved
Created a strange sadness
Filling my heart with sadness undiluted
An old sadness
Resurrected by a new sadness of loss
Sadness will not leave me
Inside my soul that bleeds sadness
Every sadness I ever felt
Moulded into a deeper sadness
Bargaining sadness for healing
Remembering every sadness felt
Feeling every sadness known
This new sadness
That lives inside me