Mother
Mom
Mama
Words so powerful
Heavy with emotion
Glue to every strength
A force that holds hearts
I should have been that
For you my child
I wanted to be everything and more
I wanted to be yours
Your mother
Wish you could have
Called me mother
Eight months
Was all you had
In mommy’s tummy
Every moment
I knew who you were
Every kick
I knew where you were
Every heart beat
I knew what you were
Wish you could have
Called me
Mother
Mom
Mama
Walk out that door
Carrying baggage, heaviness
Yet I have to smile
So no one knows my psyche already gave up
My shadow even resents me
Because I am nothing but a shell
Hollow hollow darkened shell
I have to wash my face
Walk out that door
Like I was never crying
My soul out of its chest
Nobody should see these tears
They should not know
How my h I am breaking down
Falling apart to my knees
With pain I cannot fathom
Why do you have me here
I keep asking my maker
I want to let go
Just so I don’t have to cry
One more grey tear
I have to wipe my face
Walk out that door
Like my mind was never aching
My body screaming
Because pain is more than physical
Should I
Wash, wipe or clean my face
Before I walk out that door
Drunken in deep depression
My will just about giving out
A perfect facade
Of a loss I cannot get over
Take me home father
Let this world not know me anymore
I cannot seem to stop
All these tear drops
From drenching my chest
With memories
Of what could have been
I want to own all of my tears
Maybe then my hurt will stop
As I will never get to sing you a lullaby
