WRITING

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When I stopped writing
I began to feel the pain again
That hollow space ached some more
Now my heart aches to write again

A NOTORIOUS ACHE

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Nothing is ever the same
Nothing has ever been the same
Everything is ever changing
Everything has ever changed
I feel
A notorious ache
In my heart

Something is ever gone
Something has ever been going
One thing is ever remaining
One thing has ever remained
I feel
A notorious ache
In my mind

Loosing you my baby
Feels like
A notorious ache
That will not go away
From my brokenness within
This Notorious ache
In my heart
In my mind
Refuses to let me be

ESCAPE

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Lord I feel like escaping
To where I will feel no pain
Where this hollowness does not exist
Where I will find peace when I am asleep
Even when I wake up
There will be no more sorrow
My baby’s loss
Has created this vacuum
Where love for a child
Should have been
I need to escape
From myself
From life itself
From things that burn my chest
Like missing my son
Is there an escape
From this loss
Or redemption from pain
Escape… escape

DESPITE THE ACHE

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I will laugh again
I will sing again
I will hope again
I will dream again
I will smile again
I will expect again
Despite the ache
I will rise again
I have to laugh again
I have to sing again
I have to hope again
I have to dream again
I have to smile again
I have to expect again
Despite the ache
I will rise again
I may not laugh again now
I may not sing again now
I may not hope again now
I may not dream again now
I may not smile again now
I may not expect again now
Despite the ache
I will rise again
To laugh
To sing
To hope
To dream
To smile
To expect
Tomorrow
I will rise again
Despite the ache