NOBODY SAID

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Nobody said it would hurt
When your love was not returned
Nobody said it would break you
When he did not love you back
Nobody said it would feel raw
When he never said he loved you
Nobody said it would pain
When he remained silent
Nobody said it would cause chaos
When he did not share your feelings
Nobody said it would drown you
When you loved alone
Nobody said it would end in tears
When he did not hold your heart
Nobody said it would destroy you
When he did not embrace you
Nobody said it would make you hate
When he did not hold your heart
Nobody said it would make you cry
When he did not touch your soul
Nobody said
Nobody ever says
You are left to cry alone
You are left to weep silently
You are left to bare loss
You are left to feel hurt
You are left to writhe pain
You are left holding your heart
You are left tying your shoestring
You are left hugging yourself
When he leaves
Even though
He was never yours

I SHOULD NOT CRY

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I should not cry
My turn to love is not yet
My turn to live is not nigh
To live with love
Is what I seek
Go away you loneliness
Take your leave you sadness
Have a way out
You longing for arms that warm
I should not cry
My turn to hold is not yet
My turn to spend is not near
To live with warmth
Is what I search
Go away you lonesomeness
Have a way out
You yearning for fingers that curl
I should not cry
My turn to wish is not yet
My turn to cherish is not nigh
To live with cozynness
Is what I seek
Go away you lost feeling
Have a way out
You searching for hands that hold
I should not cry

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I feel like my life is over
God please hear my heart’s cry
Help me save my sanity
I know I keep asking instead of just asking once
But my faith has been shaky if not non existent
I need to know that i will be okay
And I will still have my peace at the end of it all
Fear has gripped me so hard
I just dont know what to do anymore
I so want to give up
Yet I still want to fight
See me through this
Because my heart cannot break again
I have made peace with it all
But I still want
I need you to help me Lord
Please help me
Fight these demons of depression

SOUNDS OF A BABY’S CRY

 

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I woke up in the middle of the night
Sweats dripping down my back
Chest drenched in sweaty beads
Heart pounding so loud
I felt the bed shake
Panic stricken eyes darted
Back and forth
In complete darkness
I heard a baby cry
It was only in my nightmares
Heart beginning to calm down
Eyes adjusting to the pitch black
Sweat beads begin to dry up
My hands have stopped shaking
It was only a dream, nightmare
The sound of your cry was only in my unconscious mind
So I begin to weep
Realisation washing over me like a flood
You are not here
I dreamed up the sound of your cry
I fall back asleep
Drowned in heart burns
I don’t dream of your cry anymore
Sounds of a baby’s cry
Keep me awake
Yet still put me to sleep
When I want to dream of you
My very heart beat’s Sound

CRY WHEN NOBODY IS WATCHING

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Cry when nobody is watching
Or listening
She told her heart

He had left her frailed
Unable to love again
Afraid to let laughter
In her heart
Or the Hope of tenderness
He left her empty

Cry when nobody is watching
Or listening
She told her soul

Her parents left her broken
Unable to trust again
Afraid to let comfort
In her soul
Or faith of an embrace
They left her dejected

Cry when nobody is watching
Or listening
She told her mind

Her baby left her shattered
Unable to wish again
Afraid to let dreams
In her mind
Or expectation of a future
Baby left her destroyed

Cry when nobody is watching
Or Listening
She told her body