A SADNESS

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A
sadness
that
can’t
even
form
a
tear

BLESS THE BROKEN ROAD

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Dear Lord
Can you hear me
My road is broken
Broken by the loss of my dear child
I used to know where I was going
Now I have no sense of direction
I do not understand where to walk
Which way is right for me
I am lost
Confused amidst this crowd
Dear Lord
Bless this road I am on
This broken road I am treading
Full of broken glass
Shackles that tug at my feet
Give me direction once again
Hold my hand through this pain
Sooth the tears that burn my heart
Hold me in your embrace Jesus
Let me rest in your loving arms
This broken road may break me more
If I do not hold onto you Father
Give me grace to forgive
My angered heart
My hurting body
My desolate spirit
My hating mind
Bless this broken road Lord

I GRIEVE AND ACHE

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For you my son
A stampede of thoughts
In my brain
Causes disillusionment
A dilemma of wits
Sorrow undefined mornings
Lead to unquenchable afternoons
Ending on saddened evenings

I grieve and ache
For you my son

Everything seems less human
A relay of memories
In my heart
Causes disillusions
A problem of fits
Grief defined mornings
Create unmentionable afternoons
Starting on guarded evenings

SO ANGRY

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She was so angry
Angry at her love
Angry at her life
Angry at her pain
Angry at her maker
Angry at her loss
Angry at her self
Just angry
So much anger
With no one to sooth it

I LIVE TO SLOWLY DIE WITHOUT YOU

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I never imagined
What life would be without you
I always imagined
You would be here with me
The thought never occurred to me
That I would no longer
Have you in my arms
So
I never imagined
How it would feel like
If you didn’t exist
I thought I would die if you left me
Yet my heart kept on beating
To forever live with this pain
I didn’t choose
To survive without you
Now I have to exist
Knowing you are no longer here
If love could have saved you
If sacrifice could have kept you
If tears could bring you back
If kisses could make you stay
You would still be alive
I would choose you
Everytime

HEART PALPITATIONS

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My chest is paining
My heart is aching
To the point of insanity

BLUE BUTTERFLY

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She sits
Watching the day go by
Night she waits like death
A prowler of the night her power lies
Thirsty for a body to lay with
She sits
Watching the night approach
Night she bargains with like death
A seeker of the night her charm lies
Hungry for a chest to lay on
She sits
Watching him watch her
A dance she dances with death
A master of the night her laughter lies
Greedy for a mouth to fall on
She sits
Watching this man walk past
Seduction she plays with like death
A crawler of the night her claws lies
Sweating for a dollar to fall for

She fidgets
Listening to the night unfolding
Night she has learnt like dying leaves
A child of the night she knows
Breathing for a sin without conscience
She fidgets
Listening to him speak shit of her
Night she has bred like rotting leaves
An adult of the night she understands
Yawning for a corruptness without thought
She fidgets
Listening to him breath beneath her
Night she has abandoned like dried leaves
A woman of the night she rides on
Wanting for a guiltless heart without life
She fidgets
Listening to paper slide from a leather wallet
Night she has assumed like withered leaves
A madame of the night she folds the notes
Swallowing for a tasteless soul without vines

She walks
Knowing the day is breaking
Day she starts with mist in her eyes
Arms clasped around her chest
Cold wind beats her astounded heels
A Caterpillar of the night
Turning into a blue butterfly of the morning

Ignoring Murmurations from the street
She walks
But then flies into nothingness