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To your heart
To your chest
To your love
I am coming home
To be Cherished



She feels all alone again
Falling apart on the arms of tragedy
Loneliness is too much to bear on her tired heart
Thinking of the years already gone
This one about to end
Her heart starts racing
Not for joy but fear
She is hyperventilating knowing the year ends the same
Just like all others before have
With her having no one to call her own
Crowded by suffocating loneliness
She has cried so much, so much already
The tears never seem to be enough
To heal her dying heart
When would it stop
When would she be completely happy
She had found a diary entry
Everything written in it
Five years ago
Exactly what she is feeling right now
It seemed like nothing had changed
She wanted to disappear
Not exist anymore
She wondered what was still keeping her alive
On this earth that felt empty
She knew she should not be saying
Such abominable words
Yet she felt
So alone
So lonely
So lost
She begged the Angel of mercy to come and find her
You have read my story
Now rescue me from this pit
Help me stand on my feet
Before I cannot crawl anymore
She pleaded curled on the floor hugging her knees
Wont someone hear her
Five minutes go by without notice
She sits up on her bed looking outside the window
All she has is Missy
Her white kitten
Angel of mercy hear her



If we were having coffee
I’d tell you I have missed you
My best friends
Gladys. M .
Brenda. O .
Winnie. N .
Brenda. L .
I know I have been distant
I feel I have nowhere to begin
To explain how grief has changed me
I don’t know how to share my pain with you
I feel lost in these foreign emotions
Sadness comes and goes
Yet I am stuck in this limbo
If we were having coffee
I’d tell you, you are my therapy
Seeing you makes me calmer
Gives me a sense of direction
Lets me know I am not alone
With you holding my hand
I can never be alone
We should go for that coffee date
Laugh again like old times
Even when laughter seems so far away
I know in your hugs I feel better
Let us have that coffee
Then I can tell you how I have missed you
I need my coffee therapy with friends



Those words still haunt me
Words my mind yearns to forget
My heart needs to erase
My soul collapsed when those words were uttered
Life quickly ebbed out of me
My breath stuck in my throat
Such pain I have never known before
What happened
Why did it happen
When did it happen
Questions exploded in my mind
My heart beat was silent
Quiet moment of contemplation
Do I want to still beat again
When my other heart is none existent
How can so much love exist in a heart
Then be taken away
Take me home please