TAKE

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Take me home. She said. I want to stay with my son. Take me home.

ONE OF THOSE DAYS

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Today has just been one of those days I hate. I just feel so out of place like I dont belong here. It’s my birthday month, yet I don’t really feel like celebrating. What would I be celebrating? I lost the only thing that made sense in my life. How could such a thing happen to me? I still question the sanctity of life, how is one life more important than another? I know I wont get answers yet I still ask. How now? I feel like giving up.

A BETTER LIE

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Pasted smile on my face
I lie I am better
When all I want is to collapse
I need a better lie
To tell my heart
So my mind listens
And my body obeys
That I am Better

LATELY I HAVE LOST MY CONFIDENCE

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I used to be happy
Maybe not completely
But I was happy
You were going to be part of my life
After I lost you
I don’t know
How to be happy anymore
I don’t know
Who I am anymore
My confidence is no more
I am afraid of rejection
So I don’t go out
To meet people or life
I never know what to do anymore
Lately baby
I have no grasp of what
A good day is
It all seems like a blur
It…
Your death
Changed my perception of what is fair
Created this fear in me
That I will lose more than myself
My confidence is no more
You were me
Now you are gone
Who am I

DARKNESS

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I know it has happened
But
My mind will not completely let me in
To a darkness too deep
I may not come back from