FRACTURED FAITH

Christianity Sorrow Forgiveness Sadness Sad People

I have not been on my knees
I have not said the grace
I have not closed my eyes
I have not whispered
My heart has not sang
My lips have not prayed
My mind has not remembered
My soul refuses to listen
My faith has been fractured
By your loss
I will get back on my knees
I will say the grace again
I will close my eyes once more
I will whisper still
My heart will sing
My lips shall pray
My mind will remember
My soul shall listen
My fractured faith will strengthen
By your Grace Lord

FRANCES – SAY IT AGAIN

You run with the sun in your eyes
Arms open to whatever you find
Then there’s me
Hopelessly trying to find a way
Of hearing three little words from your mouth
And not feeling this heaven with doubt
Humor me, I know you’ve said it but

Say it again
I wanna know that you mean it, this time
Say it again
I know that I should believe it
But I never thought someone
Would love me like you say you do
Say it again, and I’ll say it back to you

You’re holding my heart in your hands
And it’s the safest feeling I’ve had, it can’t be true
Someone like you, feels this way for me
I hear three little words from your mouth
And my heart can’t figure it out
So humor me, I know you’ve said it but

Just say it again
I wanna know that you mean it, this time
Say it again
I know that I should believe it
But I never thought someone
Would love me like you say you do
Say it again, and I’ll say it back to you

I know you’ve said it but just
Say it again
I wanna know that you mean it, this time
Say it again
I know that I should believe it
But I never thought someone
Would love me like you say you do
So say it again, and I’ll say it back to you

MERCY ME – DEAR YOUNGER ME

Dear younger me
Where do I start
If I could tell you everything that I have learned so far
Then you could be
One step ahead
Of all the painful memories still running thru my head
I wonder how much different things would be
Dear younger me, dear younger me

Dear younger me
I cannot decide
Do I give some speech about how to get the most out of your life
Or do I go deep
And try to change
The choices that you’ll make cuz they’re choices that made me
Even though I love this crazy life
Sometimes I wish it was a smoother ride
Dear younger me, dear younger me

If I knew then what I know now
Condemnation would’ve had no power
My joy my pain would’ve never been my worth
If I knew then what I know now
Would’ve not been hard to figure out
What I would’ve changed if I had heard

Dear younger me
It’s not your fault
You were never meant to carry this beyond the cross
Dear younger me

You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed

Every mountain every valley
Thru each heartache you will see
Every moment brings you closer
To who you were meant to be
Dear younger me, dear younger me

You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed [x3]

GIVE ME A SONG CHILD

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My heart has not sung
Since you said goodbye to me
Silently without waking up
You told me you needed to go
Your time on earth had ended
Before it even began
Lost amidst a rhythmless world
Music has stopped synching
With my soul that is silent
Even birds no longer chirp
Crickets do not sing at night
It is a horrible silence my child
My unborn
Everything is deathly calm
Even my mind is too lost inside its own
Night no longer seems silhouette
My ears have not listened to music
As my heart refuses to let beats in
Through my soul that is deadened
I am afraid to listen to music
Because only painful reminders
Abound surrounding my lonely self
What song can I sing
When my body howls like the wolves
Out of rythm because of loss
Your loss child
Has left me without music
Give me a song child
To take away this grieving insanity