YOU SLIP THROUGH MY THOUGHTS

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Every night I dream
Every night I fantasize
That you’re always with me
When you slip through my thoughts
Everday I awake
Everyday I think
That you’re always with me
When you slip through my thoughts
Every moment I wonder
Every moment I tell myself
That you’re always with me
When you slip through my thoughts
Every morning I imagine
Every morning I allow
That you’re always with me
When you slip through my thoughts

To be eight months old
In my arms holding tight
Kissing your little face
Cooing you to sleep

Everytime you slip through my thoughts
I want your presence with me
You got me, you got my heart
A beautiful song I could have sang for you
Such purity you exude
Lyrics of my soul stand out
I want to photograph your memory
Everytime you slip through my thoughts

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A SADNESS

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A
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can’t
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a
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OVER

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I feel like my life is over
God please hear my heart’s cry
Help me save my sanity
I know I keep asking instead of just asking once
But my faith has been shaky if not non existent
I need to know that i will be okay
And I will still have my peace at the end of it all
Fear has gripped me so hard
I just dont know what to do anymore
I so want to give up
Yet I still want to fight
See me through this
Because my heart cannot break again
I have made peace with it all
But I still want
I need you to help me Lord
Please help me
Fight these demons of depression

THOUGHTS THAT HURT

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I sit under this tree
And wonder out loud
Where is my life headed
What am I doing wrong
Why can’t I have
The kind of life I want
Where should I go
To ease all this emptiness
I feel like I am drowning
Falling into this massive avalanche
That will not let go of its claws
Digging deep into my heart
Cold wind blows
I hear a plane above the sky
I wonder
What is my destiny
Who am I anyway
I have lost a sense of me
Me I do not understand anymore
Who have I become
With all this sadness inside me

Z CLARK COATES QUOTE

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“Babies lost in the womb were never touched by fear. They were never cold. Never hungry. Never alone. And importantly always knew Love…”

 Z Clarke Coates

MY TIME

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My time with you
Has been short-lived
Yet I have so much I wanted to say
So much love I wanted to give
A lot of sentences
That are now stuck in my throat
Chocking the daylights
Out of me

My time with you
Has been shortened
Yet I have so much I wanted to speak
So much care I wanted to show
A lot of paragraphs
That are now blocked in my neck
Shocking the night lights
Out of me

My time with you
Has been challenged
Yet I have so much I wanted to share
So much joy I wanted to bring
A lot of phrases
That are now lodged in my soul
Sucking the breathlessness
Out of me

My time with you
All I ever wanted to have

My time with you dear son
Everything I longed for
Though cut short
I regret it not

My time with you
I shall have again

EMOTIONAL BURNOUT

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My emotions are burnt out. Smoking in desolation. I have let the pain in. It refuses to let go. I’m not doing fine.