SPEAKING TO AN EMPTY WOMB

I have such an Overwhelming heaviness in my chest

I can feel it literally sitting on me

My eyes are full of tears

That I do not want to let fall

I cry alone

When no one is watching me

I cried really hard

It has been a while since I cried

That much

That hard

That long

I needed to unswallow this hard stone

That has lodged itself down my throat

Now into my chest till my stomach hurts

I don’t want to be without you my baby

They say it gets better

All lies

When will this darkness end

I have no faith anymore

Faith in myself

Faith in my life

Faith in God

Where does that leave me

I am only left speaking to an empty womb

I want to move forward

Yet pain of loosing you is stuck inside my being

This womb that held you within me

Now cries that you left too soon

How do I heal it

When I have no strength to even be angry

Emptiness

Emptiness

Emptiness

I can hear it echo in my entire body, soul, heart

Where does that leave me